"This book is about my penis. This is my story of going through lower surgery, specifically phalloplasty, and the adventures I have with my changing genitals along the way. Welcome to my journey." After coming out as trans, Finlay Games was adamant lower surgery would not be a part of his transition, but as the years went by, and his gender dysphoria increased, he decided to explore surgical options. Detailing the emotional and physical journey of phalloplasty, this book takes the reader through Finlay's experiences, from the initial decision-making through each stage of the surgery to its completion, recovery and after-care. Describing how he had to relearn his body, sexuality and his relationships, Finlay shares his wealth of advice and tips on donor site options, different types of surgery, the referral process, essential items and resources, and looking after your mental health. Part memoir, part self-help guide, this insightful, witty and deeply honest book highlights the life-changing impact surgery can have for trans people and provides hope to those on a similar journey.
Finlay Games is an LGBTQ+ and mental health blogger, writer and video creator. He has been sharing his transition story since 2011 via his YouTube channel, and has written for various publications about his transition. Top To Bottom is his first book.
1. Awakening to the Absence of my Penis 2. Finding the Right Penis - Exploring Lower Surgery 3. Making Sacrifices for a Penis - Weighing Up Losses and Gains in Phalloplasty 4. Preparing for a Penis - The Official Referral and A Long Wait 5. The Arrival of my Penis - Stage One Phalloplasty 6. Adjusting at Home and Early Recovery 7. The Long Recovery - Two to Six Months Post-op 8. The Freedom of Standing Up to Pee - Stage Two Phalloplasty 9. A failed attempt at Stage Three and A Giant Step Backwards 10. An Unexpected Sexual Awakening 11. Peeing Freely Again - Re-hook-up Success 12. The Gay Experiment 13. We Have Lift Off - Stage Three Success 14. Final Health and Reflections on My Journey
A witty, practical and insightful memoir and guide to the emotional and physical journey of having phalloplasty
The tongue in cheek phrase 'top to Bottom' explores openly, honestly and candidly, one individual's journey from sexual shame and gender dysphoria, to gender and sexual autonomy. This uncompromising tale inspires and challenges us. As a trans man myself, Finn has always encouraged and motivated me. For helping to dispel fear and those accompanying ghost stories, thankyou can never convey enough! A must read for anyone considering Lower Surgery and those who support us. -- Dr. Wenn B. Lawson (PhD) CPsychol AFBPsS MAPs
